I went to the Life Group hosted by Alan on Thursday night.  Apparently it had been 2 years since I had been there.  I don’t remember.  It was a potluck with a lot of people milling about.  Lots of people were surprised to see me and all the new people were introduced to me.  I hated their questions of “How’s it going?” “What have you been up to?”  I didn’t know how to answer them.

After some socializing, everyone gathered in the living room to pray for people who needed prayer.  That was why I came there, but suddenly I was very nervous.  As they started praying, the room filled with intense energy that started pressing into me.  I started to choke and cough.  I just couldn’t be in that room any more with all the light and energy making my head buzz.  I ran outside coughing, almost throwing up.  After composing myself a bit, I returned inside, but couldn’t go back into the living room.

Taran tried to drag me in there and the child wanted to be there, but the dark ones writhed and spat, pulling me back.  I stood on the threshold, watching them pray.  One of the men who was especially Light, Glen, came over to me to talk, but I was almost incoherent.  I don’t think I made any sense.  He asked if he could shake my hand.  I said yes.  It made me cough, but it wasn’t as bad.

I agreed to let them pray for me and sat down in a chair.  They asked if they could put their hands on me and I said yes, but to be careful.  They prayed for peace, and I did feel peaceful, even though there was a storm of energy in the room.  Another guy, Jeff, tried to put his hand on my shoulder and I could feel energy shooting out of him.  A dark one whipped around and tried to bite him.  He decided not to touch me.

I don’t remember what I felt or thought as I was in the chair.  I think maybe the child slipped in and took it all.

Later, after everyone had left, I got to sit down with Alan and chat.  He said that when I had told him I was DID, it made so much sense and he was surprised he hadn’t seen it before.  He was mystified by the fact that he had encountered about 7 or 8 cases of DID in the church in the recent past.  Some of the church members had been trying to exorcise these people with DID and he had to call them off and explain that they were dealing with something else and they weren’t equipped for it.  He had recently become friends with someone who specializes in treating people with DID, so I’m going to call him.

I explained to Alan that I had parts of me that didn’t need to be exorcised; they needed to be healed.  That’s why all the exorcisms and intercessions (5 that I can recall) hadn’t done anything for me.  *I* don’t want the parasite, but some of my people do.  He agreed.  Then he explained his theory about me.  He said I had an “open soul.”  I am very perceptive and open to the goings on in the spiritual world, but it makes me very vulnerable to be attacked and wounded by darkness.  I agreed with him.